Tuesday, February 26, 2008

A Room With A View

There is a room in my office that is, quite possibly, the most amazing space I've ever been in. No, Frank Gehry did not design it nor did Michelangelo coat the ceiling with paint. It's actually a conference room with a great, oak table in the center tons of fabric-covered chairs around the table and down the walls. The room features four massive windows that overlook Midtown Manhattan. While sitting at any point in the room, you can glance up and catch a glimpse of one of the most magnificent cities in the world. Whatever is going on, however I feel about myself, my job, my world, when I look out of one of those windows I feel majestic, invigorated and so damn lucky to live in New York City.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Today I Had A Thought

“You don't need anybody to tell you who you are or what you are. You are what you are!”-John Lennon

It seems that everywhere you look, someone is telling you what to wear, who to vote for, what to watch, what to do for a living, how to live. We are all born with everything that we need to live our lives and think for ourselves, yet we are trained from the day that we enter this world to follow others.

It's taken a lot for me to get to a point where I feel that my thoughts are really mine, and not someone else's that I have regurgitated. Because of that, I am fiercely protective of my thoughts, my ideas, my beliefs, myself. And I despise people that step on those things that make me, me.

Yea, I understand that we're all different. And I welcome a good discussion, but when I'm confronted with bossiness, a force that tramples over anything different with defiant ignorance, I completely repel, and either break out the quills like a threatened porcupine or I shrink back into myself. Lately, I have found myself confronted with people that have completely attempted to stamp over my personality. The constant act of either attacking or retreating has left me emotionally fatigued, exhausted even.

You know what I think? I think that people that are not very confident in their own selves tend to take any differing opinion as a personal assault and instinctively attack. It must be a very tiring existence to constantly be on the defensive.

Our society promotes this defiant ignorance. From day 1, we are socialized to talk louder, be faster, get ahead and focus on substance later. Who cares if you don't actually know the answer to a question, you were the first to raise your hand. It doesn't matter if you were the least active in your group project, you were the one that stood up and did the presentation.

I don't know everything, in fact, I don't know much. But I'm glad that I at least know that everyone is not like me and that that's not a bad thing. It's not my duty to criticize or berate people that are different, or attempt to censor someone else's originality. Thank God I know that much.